Reserved for Special Needs

I know it's been awhile since my last post. Honestly by the

time I get home my brain is fried and my body is numb.

I'll explain more in my post of what wears me out so.

When I get in front of the computer I veggie out- it is

totally my winding down time. You ladies lift me up

because I come by and visit and you remind me of

how much God loves us and that He is trustworthy in

our lives. Thank you....

I've always been told that Autism in girls is way worse.

The only experience I'd had with a girl was a 21month

old. Last summer we had a girl come into our program.

Her name is Faith and she is now 5. Let me tell the

pro's didn't lie. She throws tantrums like I've never

seen. Flops to the floor, screams, spits. I had a lady

from across the office poke her head in the otherday

because she thought surely I must have been killing

the child. She is wearing me out.

Oneday coming home from work I made that state-

ment- that she was wearing me out- in my thoughts.

As soon as I did this thought replied...

Faith vs. faith. This meant a couple of things to me:

(1) I need to rely on my faith to help Faith. So I've

started praying for her and her parents. I did

this once during the summer with another boy.

(2) I wrestle with Faith just like I do my faith. God

asks me to do or say something and I fall to the

floor kicking and screaming. (hopefully not that

dramatic)

Back in Sept. or Oct. when ever football season started

we took my nephew to his schools first football game.

He was loving it up until halftime. At halftime the little

guys came out in thier football uniforms and played a

halfpint version of the game. He looked at his mom and

said he wanted to play. With all his mom's attempts

to get him to understand (which of course he never did)

that he couldn't he turned and looked at me with the big

puppy dog eyes and said, "Aunt Melanie I can do it...".

So I bent down and asked him- how do you know that you

can do it? Here's his reply, "The heart says I can do it".

Eyes proudly welling up with tears- I stand up look at his

mom and say- put that boy over the fence! I will never

forget those words- THE Heart says I can do it!

The heart...God speaks to the heart of His people...and

by golly we can do ALL things through Him.

I say all this because I want to be SuperWomen and

twirl around and help save the world. I have been so

burdened the last several months for Special Needs.

I was able to go last March to see Beth Moore and it

was amazing. So many women- so much Jesus all

around. The first night we sat in the "nose-bleed"

seats and I noticed a sign near by that read "Reserved

for Special Needs". It was in an area that wheelchairs

could use. The next morning we arose much earlier

and got much better seats. I called my mom during the

break and I told her we were so close I could tell what

color the clip was in her hair! Anyway when the

conference was over I told my sister we have to walk

up to where we sat that night. Yes I snatched the paper

sign. It's hanging on my wall to remind me...pray for

them. Also to pray that ones like me will find the sheer

energy to do more. I don't want to limit to ones with

neurological needs but physical disabilities, mental

disabilities and Spiritual disabilities/needs.