"Wh" questions...

"Why is the light of life given to one that is in this misery, that is deprived of
the light of the sun, whose way is thus hid, and whom God hath thus hedged
in?" Job 3:20-23


I don't think I can do this post justice it deserves. However, it's burning a
hole in my heart. I must try.....


As most of you know I work with Special Needs Kids. It's only been two years
but it seems like a lifetime now. Before God blessed me in this "world" of
children- I asked so many times....why? Why does this have to be? Why this
child? Once I was introduced to the need and the knowledge I never thought
once to ask why again. Here's the child. Here's the need. Here's the mission.
And off we go. Until last week.....it's the first week of Summer school and kids
are packed in the time slots for sessions. The first of the year we successfully
potty trained a 12yr old child. This summer we are working on potty training
another. So, here I am sitting with this beautiful 8 yr old girl.
Even in her beauty (that others may not see) the old question finally cripped
back in. I found myself again asking, why God why? Why God did you make
her different? What is the reason? To us it seems unfair and wasteful. So,
I began to pray. This is what I feel He spoke to me....
They have a life- even though it may not seem "normal".
What makes their life different from your life?
I thought back on the Bible lesson we had this week in VBS in John 9.
"His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents,
that he was born blind?" "Neither this man nor his parents sinned...
but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."'

God needed a vessel to reveal His Glory. He has done that for me in the eyes and
lives of these children. He has shown me the impossible right before my eyes.
A child learning to talk- be it with his/her hands or voice. Finding the gaps and
teaching them the skills to fill it. I wish you could witness all these things
with me. He is so amazing in their lives. His Big.
I tell the rest of this with tears in my eyes....
A young married couple spreads the news they are going to have a child.
The day comes and the precious little one arrives. In the months ahead
the little one begans to grow. Mom begans to feel something is not right.
A doctor visit turns into weeks of long waiting. The dreaded news comes.
Mary was pledged to a young man and her future planned out before her.
And oneday an angel shows up and gives her news that completely changed
her plans. A new destination. One she/they must open their hearts to.

I had a dad walk up to me the week before Summer school started....
He looked me in the face- he held up one finger and said, "One word
just one word.". His 19 month old son never spoken a word. The little
boy looks and acts so much younger than he is. In that instant it felt
like a huge concrete wall fell on my shoulders. A burden that I can't
carry and a task that takes a miracle. Praise God as He would have
it I don't have to carry it or perform it.....He will. He is the Miracle
Worker!! I'm already seeing it. The little boy has caught on so fast
(just two days) that I'm asking him to do something with his hands.
He is already taking my hand and forming the signs for his wants.

I think it would be okay to give first names...because you my Sisters
are prayer warriors...these kids and their families need prayers.

Amber and Andrew (brother and sister- Amber is the one being
potty trained and Andrew is the 19 month old- yeah that
dad had a lot on his mind that day he caught me in the hall)
Chris
Bry
Jake
Seth
Michael
Taylor (12yr old girl abused by step father)
Parker
Matthew
Coby
Adrian
Beau
Chase
Reid
Seth M.
Ryan

Pray for our staff. We have a young staff that doesn't see
the importance and ergency at hand. I just feel so
overwhelmed and already exhausted. Thank you!