Relax.

We had our first training sessions about two weeks ago for the
new job. We were given some books to read over the summer.
My first one to read is titled "If You Don't Feed the Teachers
They Will Eat the Students". Great title don't you think?!
I'm reading today through the intro...yeah the intro is as far
as I've got. Anyway, It gave some characteristics of a well-
adjusted leader. Let's see...
the ability to care and be concerned for others... check
the desire to be successful... (in God's eyes...check)
the ability to handle stress....insert sound of scretching wheels

The third point caught my attention immediately. No, not
handling that one very well. The third point goes on to say
we will discuss more on this in chapter six. So what did I do?
Yeap skipped all other points and went straight to chapter 6.

So I thought I would pose this question to you...
How do you handle stress?

Lost or running away?

I have always loved this picture. I'm not sure why. It's a beautiful scenery.

This is were I am mentally and Spiritually. Right now mentally I feel out in

the middle of nowhere. Lost. The way today went I want to stay there and

not be found. Some things have been going on at work for a long time now

that has my "attitude" in a really bad place. The kids are the only reason I'm

working this summer. So it's other things that have me at the end of my rope.

I'm not going into a new job burnt out but I feel I need to stay because of my

responsibilities to the children.

Spiritually I need to be here. Lost with nobody around but my Savior to

depend on. I received an email devotion today with this scripture found in

Matthew 25:21 "His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant!

You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many

things....". God has intrusted me with a "few things" (and I am in no way

bragging) and now I feel He has intrusted me and said "I will put you in

charge of many things.".

I'm very tired and confused about things right now. I'm trying not to

make a decision in haste but I'm praying about taking a blogging break.

Girls, I got nothing to give right now. There are some of you that are

new to my blog and I hope that you understand because I don't want to

lose any contacts with anybody. If I do take a break here I will be by

to visit you all.

Love you guys.....

Been feeling a bit under the weather. I caught a cold from a
couple of the kids at work last week. I feel soooo much better
today. I just wanted to say hello.
Well, it's finally happened....
Nope, didn't meet the man of my dreams or win the lottery!
My 20..... yes my 2o year High School Reunion is coming up!!!
Good grief has it been that long?!?! Yeah, it has! Why would
they wait and have one this late in life when "old timers" has
kicked in (no fun intended) and I don't remember half of
their names!
I'm still going to share the memories of my elementary school.
For now I hear some fun coming from outside the house and
I intend to be a right in the middle of it! Grilled burgers and
kiddos in a blow up pool!!!!
Love ya and don't forget the sunscreen....and bug spray!!!!!!!!!

A New Day

Uh oh...I just noticed the date on my last post...oops didn't
realize it had been that long since I posted last.

Yesterday was a new day for me. The first day of a twenty
year prayer being answered! I start my training for the new
job. Just a little funny- for the last month since talking here
about the interview and all...every time I time I type the
word job...I end up mispelling it and typing...joy! That's kind
of neat in a way!
Anyway, yesterday felt like a huge weight was lifted off my
shoulders. I'm anxious about the journey ahead but I'm
ready to charge off into it. This is a brand new school. This
fall will be it's first. If you know anything about Charter
Schools you'll know of my excitement. It's a new "thing"
that's allowing the teachers freedom and creativity in the
classrooms.
Here's a quote from the newspaper last week, "One of our
core goals is to equip our students, in whatever their passion
is and to be successful...". That's what I'm talking about!
The only worry I have is being pulled out of the field of
Special Ed. My training is too much not to be used. I know
that God is stepping this thing out and I trust Him without
doubt.
Tomorrow I'll try to sit down and share with you about the
old school I went to and how cool and historic it was.
Until then...hope you have a great Friday!!

"Wh" questions...

"Why is the light of life given to one that is in this misery, that is deprived of
the light of the sun, whose way is thus hid, and whom God hath thus hedged
in?" Job 3:20-23


I don't think I can do this post justice it deserves. However, it's burning a
hole in my heart. I must try.....


As most of you know I work with Special Needs Kids. It's only been two years
but it seems like a lifetime now. Before God blessed me in this "world" of
children- I asked so many times....why? Why does this have to be? Why this
child? Once I was introduced to the need and the knowledge I never thought
once to ask why again. Here's the child. Here's the need. Here's the mission.
And off we go. Until last week.....it's the first week of Summer school and kids
are packed in the time slots for sessions. The first of the year we successfully
potty trained a 12yr old child. This summer we are working on potty training
another. So, here I am sitting with this beautiful 8 yr old girl.
Even in her beauty (that others may not see) the old question finally cripped
back in. I found myself again asking, why God why? Why God did you make
her different? What is the reason? To us it seems unfair and wasteful. So,
I began to pray. This is what I feel He spoke to me....
They have a life- even though it may not seem "normal".
What makes their life different from your life?
I thought back on the Bible lesson we had this week in VBS in John 9.
"His disciples asked him, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents,
that he was born blind?" "Neither this man nor his parents sinned...
but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life."'

God needed a vessel to reveal His Glory. He has done that for me in the eyes and
lives of these children. He has shown me the impossible right before my eyes.
A child learning to talk- be it with his/her hands or voice. Finding the gaps and
teaching them the skills to fill it. I wish you could witness all these things
with me. He is so amazing in their lives. His Big.
I tell the rest of this with tears in my eyes....
A young married couple spreads the news they are going to have a child.
The day comes and the precious little one arrives. In the months ahead
the little one begans to grow. Mom begans to feel something is not right.
A doctor visit turns into weeks of long waiting. The dreaded news comes.
Mary was pledged to a young man and her future planned out before her.
And oneday an angel shows up and gives her news that completely changed
her plans. A new destination. One she/they must open their hearts to.

I had a dad walk up to me the week before Summer school started....
He looked me in the face- he held up one finger and said, "One word
just one word.". His 19 month old son never spoken a word. The little
boy looks and acts so much younger than he is. In that instant it felt
like a huge concrete wall fell on my shoulders. A burden that I can't
carry and a task that takes a miracle. Praise God as He would have
it I don't have to carry it or perform it.....He will. He is the Miracle
Worker!! I'm already seeing it. The little boy has caught on so fast
(just two days) that I'm asking him to do something with his hands.
He is already taking my hand and forming the signs for his wants.

I think it would be okay to give first names...because you my Sisters
are prayer warriors...these kids and their families need prayers.

Amber and Andrew (brother and sister- Amber is the one being
potty trained and Andrew is the 19 month old- yeah that
dad had a lot on his mind that day he caught me in the hall)
Chris
Bry
Jake
Seth
Michael
Taylor (12yr old girl abused by step father)
Parker
Matthew
Coby
Adrian
Beau
Chase
Reid
Seth M.
Ryan

Pray for our staff. We have a young staff that doesn't see
the importance and ergency at hand. I just feel so
overwhelmed and already exhausted. Thank you!

Not by sight...

Kids can say this most amazing things. I thought while I had
some energy and mental ability- haha- I would share with you
something one of the kids said last night. Now, bear in mind
that I am teaching the Preschool class!
We had the story last night of Jesus healing a blind man taken
from John chapter 9. The lesson ended shorter than our
scheduled time for moving from one class to the next...so
our Bible story teacher was trying to stretch out the lesson.
The teacher made a comment along the lines of Jesus coming
to town and the blind man called out to Jesus. Which actually
wasn't the case because Jesus saw the blind man as He walked
along the way. The little boy in class looked straight up at her
and said, "If he was blind how did he know Jesus was there?".
I sat there just blown away by this question then looked at
the lady and said- now there's a question filled with a lot of
thought. He was blind how did he know Jesus was there?!!!
Wow, when we are "blind" how do we know that Jesus is
there?!! When we can't see beyond the present circumstance-
can't see the forest for the trees- when we don't have a clue
what is going on- when we feel we are standing alone in the
dark.... we have the promise from Him that He sees and
He knows. He is there right there in the midst of our
surroundings.
In John 9 after Jesus healed the man the people asked
who opened your eyes and the man answered "a man
named Jesus". Then in verse 12 it says, "So where is he?"
"I don't know". This part of the story reminds me of the
little boys question. I don't just want to know where my
Jesus is....I want others to know where and who my Jesus
is! Just as this blind man's faith led him pushing through
a crowd to get to the Pool of Siloam- I want others to see
me pushing through this life here on Earth and it's hardships
not caring if I have "mud" on my face and what they may
think of me in the moment...but that they see my walking
through it. And that the walk of faith is rewarded and
blessed by Him.
Thank you Jesus for your healing. Thank you for being my
sight and vision. I trust You....

Night One:

Wooo I LOVE Jesus....how about you?

Oh, man God is sooooo Good!

Very busy and crazy day but V.B.S. Rocks!!

Okay, Night one's Bible Point...

God Gives Us the Power to be THANKFUL!

Aha!!

The kids challenge for the night is to go and

tell someone what or who they are

thankful for ...

So I here by issue the same challenge to you...

whatcha thankful for Ladies?

I'm so thankful for my family

my church family

my new job

friends

my blogging Siestas

as my nephew said, "everything"

most of all I'm thankful for a Mighty God

who loves me beyond anything I can

comprehend!!

"Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts,

since as members of one body you were called

to peace. And be thankful."

Colossians 3:15